So, 182.5 this morning and i am happy. I am trying to get off the poundage I gained over Spring Break. I have learned and confirmed that the scheduled life works best for me. Although work can bring stress to your life, it also brings structure. I could see how being self employed at home or retired would be difficult for me in this way of eating. I have two new recipes for the meeting tonight although we will not be there. We will be at the boys baseball game.
Speaking of the boy... he had lost quite a bit and then went back up. I am on a mission to get him back down so he can make weight for football. This is, of course, a secret only I know-I would never stress him about that.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Nightmare: a situation resembling a terrifying dream.
I sometimes fear I am in one. This new way of eating has made it very easy to drop weight quickly. I sometimes think one day I will be like Violet Beauregarde in Willi Wonka who blows up like a blueberry or like the Nutty Professor. My biggest fear is putting the weight back on. You would think this would keep me from eating things I shouldn't but you would be wrong. Spring Break has not been easy. I have no one to blame but myself. I have made lots of sweets and eaten many things I shouldn't. Yesterday I weighed in the evening and had hit 188. I was truly panicked. By this morning I was at 185 but still... so sad considering I began Spring Break at 180. I am learning the lessons over again and again. I know that heaven for me will be to walk from bakery to bakery, eating every sweet and pastry I can. I am still trying to find the right mix for me here on earth.
I want to move forward to a weight that feels good. I know Dr. Kahlia will have many comments on that one. Somewhere between 170 and 150 is my just right weight and I want to get there without this one step forward and two back dance I am doing. So much of this is getting my mind made up. I am glad to be getting back to work tomorrow-the routine works best for me. Also, the exhaustion that comes with work. That sounds weird but being tired makes you go to bed and not stay up and snack.
I think I am rambling but those are my thoughts.
I sometimes fear I am in one. This new way of eating has made it very easy to drop weight quickly. I sometimes think one day I will be like Violet Beauregarde in Willi Wonka who blows up like a blueberry or like the Nutty Professor. My biggest fear is putting the weight back on. You would think this would keep me from eating things I shouldn't but you would be wrong. Spring Break has not been easy. I have no one to blame but myself. I have made lots of sweets and eaten many things I shouldn't. Yesterday I weighed in the evening and had hit 188. I was truly panicked. By this morning I was at 185 but still... so sad considering I began Spring Break at 180. I am learning the lessons over again and again. I know that heaven for me will be to walk from bakery to bakery, eating every sweet and pastry I can. I am still trying to find the right mix for me here on earth.
I want to move forward to a weight that feels good. I know Dr. Kahlia will have many comments on that one. Somewhere between 170 and 150 is my just right weight and I want to get there without this one step forward and two back dance I am doing. So much of this is getting my mind made up. I am glad to be getting back to work tomorrow-the routine works best for me. Also, the exhaustion that comes with work. That sounds weird but being tired makes you go to bed and not stay up and snack.
I think I am rambling but those are my thoughts.
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